One of the blogs I found dealt with the subject of various fetishes , mainly BDSM. Being a small town girl who married her high school sweetheart my knowledge on this subject was non existent.
Over the past week I find myself drawn to this blog and I have even found similar blogs to read as well. I feel drawn to this darker side. On Sunday I was in the drug store and bought myself a copy of Fifty Shades Of Grey. I actually felt my heart pounding wildly at the checkout thinking the cashier is going to blab to half the town that I bought a copy.
Imagining the ladies at the church snickering behind my back. However all the cashier said was its a good book you'll enjoy it.
I started reading it, wasn't too impressed to begin with but decided to stick with it. Millions of women cant be wrong. Then it got interesting ,very interesting. So, much so I was up until 3am on a workday reading it. It has stirred up so many longings in my body.
I want my darling hubby to transform into Christian Gray. I want him to tie me up, blindfold me, spank me. My problem is im very shy sexually and I don't know how to broach the subject. I'm also nervous to tell hubby in case he laughs in my face. Then I'll feel stupid.
I have never thought as myself as a subservient woman. But, after reading this book and these blogs I feel drawn to explore further. I just don't know how to begin this journey.
Why not start small. Buy something sexy to wear to bed. Leave the book in the bathroom when you know hubby's going in. Maybe he'll browse it a bit. Then when he comes out say I'm reading an amazing book but I've put it down and can't find it. Have you seen it. Might spark up a conversation
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