Last week I was browsing other blogs. Some were very interesting, others mundane and some very risqué.
One of the blogs I found dealt with the subject of various fetishes , mainly BDSM. Being a small town girl who married her high school sweetheart my knowledge on this subject was non existent.
Over the past week I find myself drawn to this blog and I have even found similar blogs to read as well. I feel drawn to this darker side. On Sunday I was in the drug store and bought myself a copy of Fifty Shades Of Grey. I actually felt my heart pounding wildly at the checkout thinking the cashier is going to blab to half the town that I bought a copy.
Imagining the ladies at the church snickering behind my back. However all the cashier said was its a good book you'll enjoy it.
I started reading it, wasn't too impressed to begin with but decided to stick with it. Millions of women cant be wrong. Then it got interesting ,very interesting. So, much so I was up until 3am on a workday reading it. It has stirred up so many longings in my body.
I want my darling hubby to transform into Christian Gray. I want him to tie me up, blindfold me, spank me. My problem is im very shy sexually and I don't know how to broach the subject. I'm also nervous to tell hubby in case he laughs in my face. Then I'll feel stupid.
I have never thought as myself as a subservient woman. But, after reading this book and these blogs I feel drawn to explore further. I just don't know how to begin this journey.
